First of all, because I’m NOT skinny at all, I’m a freaking whale that devours everything that crosses my way.
Second, because it’s making fall more into my bingein-purging cycles and I don’t want to, I was trying really hard to get through this and here I am, purging even twice a day, fucking sick mentally and physically.
Third, because I’m not a fucking “stick” nor “noodle” nor “table” or anything related.
it’s just making me more self-consious and I can’t anymore, I don’t know what to do. I’ve been dealing with this for over a year and I’m so sick of feeling this way everyday.
I just want it to, whatever way, whenever. I just don’t care anymore.
I don’t wanna live like this anymore.