1. whiteblankpage14:

    Okay no this is just completely wrong and disgusting. Ugh. You do more harm to yourself by not eating. I’m sorry but I can’t just see this on my dash and not say anything. All you need to do is eat healthy okay you can lose weight while also doing no harm to your body. Really don’t starve yourself.

    Wow I can’t believe I actually believed in this a year ago, I used to have a folder full of these and read it everyday to remind me I shouldn’t eat or to make me feel a lot more guilty about eating…
    I really don’t get why these people want to spread there sickness to everyone out there, we wouldn’t have as many eating disorders as we do now if these kind of people didn’t do this thing. What kind of person are you that you want others to suffer the same? In my own personal opinion I’d rather relapse than letting someone else go through that shit.

    Stop promoting eating disorders, get help. Don’t trigger.

    (Source: lex-and-flex, via oliviaekman-larsson)

     

  2. About recovery

    I don’t know if you remember but exactly one year ago I was suffering from an eating disorder.
    It’s been such a long and painful road ever since that it seems so odd it’s been a year.

    I’m not gonna say I’m fully recovered or that I don’t even remember those days because I’d be lying, The memories and voices come back to me as soon as I wake up, as soon as I look in the mirror, as I see myself naked in the mirror and the only thing left of the bones that once showed is a memory and it’s hard, it’s freaking hard to not feel bad about it, it’s hard to ignore all those voices saying how I am weak for letting myself eat again or for not purging but as soon as it starts I remind myself how it’s the complete opposite. I got out of an eating disorder, fought against my own self and did what was best for me. That doesn’t make me weak at all, that means I am stronger than I thought I was.

    I’ve come to realize that it really doesn’t matter, it doesn’t matter how you look or how much you weight. What matters is what you think of yourself and if you don’t think anything good then, who will? If you don’t love and respect yourself, who will? If you don’t forgive yourself, who will?
    This is everything I learned from these past months, all the counting and all the dieting are no longer important. What is important is all the moral stuff.

    I’m learning to love, to forgive and respect myself because I’m all I have. I am my everything, I am my universe and if I don’t get that then what’s left for me? Nothing.
    Like I said, I’m still learning, I’d be lying if I said I don’t purge or think about it anymore, or skip meals, or count calories, I still do it sometimes without realizing it but when I do notice it I stop and remind myself how much I worked to get here an how I’m not letting myself down anymore because I don’t deserve it.
    I’m not fat or skinny, I am me, smart, funny, clever, friendly, shy, future diplomat, curious, exited, crazy at times, happy, loving. The size and looks are an extra and we all have our own, we just have to learn to love it.

    This may be long and I doubt anyone will read but I needed to write it and I really hope it helps anyone who’s in the same place.
    Don’t lose your hope, we can all beat this, if I could, you can it’s just a matter of wanting it.
    Good luck to all of you. You are all beautiful, you just need to believe it

     

  3. Why?

    Why why why why why why why WHY did I have to go back to the “ana” tag?

    It’s so fucking triggering! It just reminded me how freaking fat ad ugly I’ve gotten these past days… I wanna go back to it, I miss dieting and working out and all that.
    I can’t let myself do it. I’ve got to be strong.

     

    1. Classmate: have you always been this skinny?
    2. Me: wut.
     

  4. So my dad my just told me that if he doesn’t see me eat he’ll take me to the hospital

    Well, I’m screwed…

    Tagged #ana #ed
     

  5. I’m done with recovery

    All I’ve done is eat like crazy and get fat as a freaking pig and I feel like shit and like the biggest failure cuz I have all the freedom to not eat and I’m wasting it.
    I’m done. I’m done being fat again, I wanna go back to how I was before…

    Tagged #ednos #ana
     

  6. I really don’t want to eat but I can’t stop it.

    I don’t know why.
    This sucks jabagdkehnx

     

  7. I binged,
    I can’t purge,
    I am fucking screw.

    Tagged #ana #ed
     

  8. Made it without purging today.

    I’m freaking out.
    I feel so fat already, I know I am fatter.
    I want to do it so bad but everything is so quiet, they’re gonna hear me and not to mention my stomach is fucking killing me….
    Fuck recovery, fuck everything. I’m done I don’t deserve it cuz I’m a fat piece of crap

     

  9. Plan for August,

    Do it the healthy way.
    And by healthy, I mean HEALTHY. Not my version of healthy where I just eat everything that crosses my way.
    I’ll stop purging and eating ONLY when I have to. No restricting but also no bingeing.
    Sticking to the same work out routine for 4 weeks and then change it.
    Try to be happy with myself, won’t be easy but I guess I can’t stop living this way when I have so many amazing things coming my way, I have so many dreams and plans and I have to live for them, for my family and my friends even if it’s not for me.